So my second attempt I will tell you a little bit more of myself. I am currently battling depression so I am taking a wonder drug called Cellexia. This has changed me a bit.... first I have become a better mom and wife. My husband has called my drugs "happy pills" and it has definitely improved my outlook on life. It has also done some damage to my relationship with my Mother. I have come to a realization that my Mother is someone that I no longer look at with wonder. Don't get me wrong I love her, she gave me life and "love". I just no longer respect her in the way that I respect my other Family. Her version of "love" is a one way street. She is quite happy when she is the center of the world. She cannot handle when my siblings and I give our love to each other (not in a sick way... I know what some of you perverts are thinking) or our spouses. In her eyes she should always be #1, first and foremost even to our children, god and each other. She has disowned me recently and that has been OK with me because I am in too fraglie of a mind to deal with her right now. She on the other hand, has pushed her limits to my sister and brother, hoping that pitting each other aganist one another will bring her closer to her (just as it has always done in the past) this time it backfired. They have now disowned her...never saw that one coming...lol. I will say in her crazy way made my experiences with relationships better. I will never make the same mistakes that she has. Two failed marriages, the first to my father, which I am not sad over because I love the woman he now has married to. The second to a horrible man who does not deserve to breathe air (even though he is the father to my 2 half sisters) and is working on her next failed marriage (I give it one more year) to a man not as bad as the second but should be in jail. My mother has been looking for her Prince Charming from Cinderella, some one that will sweep her off her feet, make her a Princess and have the ability to give her whatever she wants. So what has this taught me..... Prince Charming is not real, if you want to get married and have babies, you will find someone who you trust, respect and that makes you satisfied. Marriage and all other important relationships are really hard work, worth sacrifice and compromise. So I dedicate this post to her. Thanks Mom for showing me the wrong way to treat relationships so that I never will.